Momma Spends

Most of her days following this little man up the stairs.

Finding My Passion

As you know, I left my job in January. It was a scary thing to do, a leap of faith. And no matter how much I knew that I wanted to have time with my son- time that I wasn't getting by working the retail business- I also knew that I would need to have something for myself.

I am learning just how true that is.

I want this. I want to be at home with Walker and see his growth. I want to know when he napped, how long his naps were, what and when he ate. I want to know how many dirty diapers he had and what new things he learned each day.

So I left my job in order to become a stay-at-home-mother. I also mentioned to several people in several places that I wanted to start a photography business on the side. I wanted to start a studio and really pursue photography. I have been taking the NYIP photography course for the past two years but with marriage and a baby, have yet to finish it. So my goal is to complete that. I know that I need something for myself. 

But I've been doing some deep thinking. And here is the conclusion I've come to:

I enjoy photography. I really do.

But I'm just not sure that I'm cut out to be a photographer. I love picking up my camera and capturing the stories I see around me. Capturing moments and emotions- things that could be classified as candid.

I don't like giving direction. It's not for me.

My dream job as a photographer would be to take candid photographs at events. I would love to be in the background and capture all of those feelings- the stories as I see them. That could be at birthday parties, weddings, a typical day at home...

So where does that leave me? I'm not sure.

I feel like I need to find my passion- that one thing that I love to do- something that gives me a goal to work towards. And I'm still working on that.

It seems to me that I've struggled with this issue for years. There are a lot of things that I am “good” at, but I want to find that one thing that I am “great” at. My passion.

More to come on this.

10 Months Old Today

 And 1st haircut yesterday.  We had trimmed around the ears before, but Walker got a little buzz last night!

Welcome

Welcome to my new www home. My goal with this new blog is to post more often, be more honest and share my views of the world.

I have a confession to make. It's often hard for me to post because I tend to censor my thoughts so much. I'm not going to do that anymore. Hold me to it okay?

So what have we been up to lately?

I got to visit (and babysit) "Handy Manny".

 

We were visited by a couple of Walker's aunties.

Walker found a great bed for his teddy.

And decided he could help me load the dishwasher.

We visited Walker's great grandma.

Read some books...

Went to this little guy's baptism.

(Don't you just love that hair?!)

Took a family picture.

And hung out with this little peanut.

What's new in your world?